Thursday,Dec 10th is the last day of school for the fall semester. In the beginning of the semester, I actually set some goals for myself. I wanted to join student clubs, start talking to people, like just improving on my social skills. Today, friday, I am seating here and feeling like a failure. Yes, I joined the clubs but I dont feel like i worked on my social skills. I would probably not do any meaningful thing during my holiday either..lol.
This is my first full semester, I have taken both 8wk spring classes and summer classes but this is the first 16 wk semester that I took in the US. My favorite class was Biology. I did very well in this class.. my final score was about 95. I even did an honors project with the professor. My honors presentation was good and many peoole congratulated me. A lady even gave me a gift. She gave me 2 victoria’s secret pink perfumes and 2 pairs of victorias secret socks and i loved them😍😍. Even my professor said she was going to get a gift for me too. I would like to buy a gift for her buh I am broke😭😭 . My biology class and professor were one of my major encouragements throughout the semester. I really appreciate everyone that looked past my awkwardness and still interacted with me.
In this semester, I aND my brother got invited to be featured on our school website. I also met new premeds, although, I was too awkward to actually interact as I would have liked to.
I need to build good social skills but there would be no way to build it if I am just inside the apartment the whole day.. playing with my phone. I think I would be working next semester, like a work-study program. I think this would help in breaking out of my shell and talking but I still need to work on my social skills.
In conclusion, let’s always trust in God, through the thick and thins. A song that I learned while in secondary school says… “God you know my needs, God you know my desire… “Let’s trust God through it all. We shouldn’t rely on what we know or what we think is right.. let’s be obedient. It could be really hard but let’s look up to the author and finisher of our faith. He loves us, even when we don’t love him or even love ourselves. Don’t let devilish thougts come into your head because it would only make you feel worse. Life can only get better. It wouldn’t always be like this. Just like with our heartbeat, we have the lows and the highs. Let’s go through all this stages with understanding and let’s learn what we ought to learn. Suicide wouldn’t amount to anything, you would only lose your dreams and purpose. Remember that the power in you is greater than any power that could ever be against you. Also, the only person that could stop you from achieving your goals is you. So, be wise! Joy to the wise! Don’t let this temporary things ruin your beautiful future. If you would just obey, I promise you, it would get better. God is not one to lie, if he did it before, he can still do it again.
We are the light of the world, a city set upln the hill cannot be hidden. Let your light shine.
Live. Love. Learn.😚😚
God loves you like crazy!